In accordance with the general insanities of the season of fall, this weekend shall be no exception.
I must not have been busy enough because in October, I joined another chorale - a longstanding triple-quartet. I have been to only two rehearsals out of five or more spent on this music, and on Saturday, we have our first performance at Peoples. The wife of the director left me a long voice message yesterday kindly asking me to remember to show up. At some point, she turned the corner of reason and started going on about how her husband was telling her what a great addition I've made and what a nice voice I have. I knew then that she had confused me with some other guy. Add to that the fact that Tom keeps saying that without me to lean on, they'd be sunk - when I'm listening to everyone else for the right notes. Sometimes this type of talk worries me. It worries me that they're not just trying to be nice, and everyone actually believes the rubbish they're saying about me and that sooner or later, they'll all realize that I'm actually not that great at all. Meanwhile I struggle to live up to this talent - which doesn't exist at all. Honestly, if people wanted to rave about my talent, they should talk about my talent for causing confusion. And pranks.
Anyway, after that concert, it will be straight out of town for me for a great huzzah with my sister who has just finished chemo and radiation (for the last time we pray). Maybe rough-house with the nephews and niece, to make sure I can still take them all on four on one and to make sure they're good and tired at night. Sunday, I'll provide the entertainment just by going to church out there with my sister and her family. They were all in a flap last time I went there because a pretty pair of eyes was actually paying attention to me. Sometimes, people read too much into nothing - but if living vicariously through my life grants them a little pleasure, then that's alright. They've had a hard enough time that it's nice to give them something about which to smile.
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